It's gonna be a champagne year.


I saw in the New Year in my spiritual home, Telegraph Hill, with my two favourite girls. We drank gin and Prosecco and wrapped our arms around each other in the pouring rain and sang Fairytale of New York but changed the lyrics to Fairytale of New Year. I downloaded a countdown app and we were the annoying sods screaming 'TWO MINUTES TO GO'. We were drunk and merry and happy and it couldn't have been better, unless, of course, my best Bird was there too.

 Now that the Christmas rush is over, (thanks Ma and Pa for the AMAZING coffee machine!!!) that I'm over my cheese withdrawals and settling back in to normal life, I've been thinking about what I want to get out of this year. Last year, my only real resolution was to say 'YES' more. I took opportunities, risks, I had a lot of fun. I started online dating, I met some incredible people, I learnt a lot about myself. I developed a passion for grounding who I am, for being proud of it, for laying the groundwork of my life. For mixing mortar and building bricks and covering it all in glitter. I was learning fragments of how to be happy.

This year I want to use it all.

In the past, I've let a lot of labels define who I am: 'That little blonde girl', 'That girl's girlfriend', 'That insane one', 'That lesbian', while I might be or might have been any number of these things, I've grown into a person, rather than just a shell with some hair and a degree. My labels are no longer labels, they are identifications. They are slivers of who I am, but who I am is so much more. I will never be defined by something or someone else, and I couldn't be prouder of how far I've come. Shake off the bad, welcome the good, love everything and everyone around you. Don't keep anyone in your life who doesn't deserve to be there.

In short, my New Years Resolutions are as follows;
1. Stop biting my nails, for the 22nd year running
2. Be more productive - learn more, write more, photograph more, document more
3. Take care of my body and mind
4. Channel RuPaul, Duchess, Azealia, Lana, Beyonce, in everything you do
5. Be the best person that you can be

I can't make myself promises I know I can't keep, I won't ask too much of myself. I won't shame myself, tell myself I need to lose 2 stone or try and be prettier or save some money. These things are unrealistic and, as I've come to realise, will make me unhappy when I don't achieve them. Striving for happiness is something I'm a bit more invested in now.
You've just got to try your best, I suppose.

Fun, health, knowledge and calm is all I really want. Don't get me wrong, I'm still planning on showing my face at 90% of Queer events in London - I'm still planning to be incredibly high quality in every aspect of my life. I promised myself that this year I'd buy some Agent Provocateur, and hey, I've achieved that and it's only day two. If I carry on at this rate, this year is going to be fucking amazing.

P M A P M A P M A 

P.s. For those of you that have asked me, by Duchess, this is to whom I am referring: