LET'S START AGAIN
Hello again, lovely people.
You'll notice that this blog has been on what I thought would be a permanent hiatus for almost a year. Since I started working at Stonewall, I found myself with less time to write. My life became full of wonderful new things, full of joy and passion and fire, but as my work life flourished, my way of thinking shifted.
I prioritised other things ahead of this blog, ahead of writing and ahead of spending quality time with myself. It got me into a very weird spiral, and that's all coming to fruition now.
Those of you who have read my blog for a long time will know that the reason I set it up was to provide some sort of diary, some sort of journal for me to get out everything that was in my head. Some of my posts were incredibly dark, some I poured my heart into, some could have split at the seams they were so full of love. I'm trying to find a good balance of all of that in my life now, so hopefully that'll reflect on this. I've now archived my previous blog posts. They're not relevant anymore.
In the past year my life has ticked along and I've done some pretty cool things. I turned 24, I broke up with Amy (heartbreak is surprisingly good for your mental health, in the end), I landed two modelling jobs with some major brands (I know, WTF?!?!?).
I started dating an incredible woman called Minerva. She lives up to her name, as I'm sure you'll learn. I visited Stockholm, which is something I've always wanted to do. I've started taking pictures again. I got a promotion. And now I'm starting another chapter, just before I turn 25 and feel like an actual grown up.
I start CBT next week. It's something I've needed to do for a very long time. I'm not doing it because I'm sad, or out of control, or scared, or anxious. I'm feeling more grounded and supported now than I have in a very, very long time. I'm just ready now. I'm ready to take all the towels out of the airing cupboard, fold them up and put them back in again, neatly. I'm not seeking some desperate solution and just shoving everything inside and hoping the cupboard door closes. I'm taking the time and doing things properly, finally.
So, welcome. Have fun.